Cry? I'm not. *wipe the tears*

Hei there =)

ohhh yeah. seems my mood is not really good. do you smell it? ahaks. ergh -.-'

buat something tak pikir dulu. she is very WORTH in your life Pijah. why you do this? seriusly menyesal. and i've. i must. i'm sure to seek her forgiveness :( that tears rolling on my cheeks not because i'm sulking with you but i'm regretful what i've done to you.

seriusly menyesal tahap tak ingat. masuk bilik. lying in my bed and "oh my god,what i have done?"

actually. this 'thing' dah lama tak jadi. aku sendiri taktau why my mouths is 'pot pet pot pet'. padahal okay jek sebelum tu. bila ingat balik apa yang aku cakap "kalau tak ikhlas tak payah buat". and fikir balik. as if kalau dia ikhlas. ohhh i'm cried.

sorry. sebab tak layan sesape pun tadi. even dekat twitter. you mention me. and i've no intention to it.

but

i'm just text to him. i want to talk with him. cause when i have the problem either small or big problem. i will go to him. sorry for my girl friends. but you know. he is such a 'gila gila' guy. and he is not be able to make me cry when i otp with him even i tell my problem. because u'olls very know me well right. ego mengalahkan gunung kinabalu. and tahun 2013 is not the year i want to be weak like last year.

 i want to be the old Hafizah okay. sekarang tengah kumpul kekuatan balik. bina balik apa yang pernah runtuh. dan 'diperuntuhkan' mungkin masa tahun 2012. yesss. i'm weak indeed. sebab sometimes who doesn't want to cry is the weak person. but not me. selagi aku boleh mampu tahan,aku akan tahan. tu cara aku nampak kekuatan aku and bila. aku dah tak tahan. bila aku rasa aku dah tak kuat. penat. that the time. i told to myself "yes Pijah you're not strong enough so let it be" cause i know when i'm crying. in the fact yesss i'm alone. but not alone because we've Allah right? aku manusia jugak. not a robot. i'm cry. tapi bukan depan orang. i dont like to be 'sok sek sok sek' depan orang. menangis. lain orang lain cara kan?

tapi hati ni rapuh gila. macam gula kena air panas. perumpamaan hati aku bila dengan dia. not my intention to make she sakit hati la. no no no :( my bad. 

so what i do tonight is sent the message : "mom. sorry :("

p/s: tu je mampu. and i hope she will read it. and i will text maybe 2 3 4 times to make sure she will read my text. sengal kan i?